I went through high school jerking around, not screwing up or anything but not giving any thought to what I wanted to do. I thought about it one night and decided that I might be able to stand a teaching job, maybe junior high or high school. So I went to college, where I proceeded to jerk around, not caring about where I would be afterwards. I soon finished college and noticed that I had remained a jerk-arounder. That brings us to now. And lately I have been thinking about getting a job--not the actual process and the actions of getting a job and doing that job--thinking about working somewhere I don't want to be, forcing me to something that I don't want to do. Sure I'll probably do it--raise some income and try to make the most fun out of it--but I still get a sick feeling down inside when I think that someone is going to be telling me what to do and how to do it. Now that I'm on my own--away from all my friends and still living with my parents--I feel the most alone I have ever felt. Because it seems like everybody loves their stupid jobs and don't even want to do something else in life. (This is the point in my thinking when I say, "well, everyone thinks that--they just go on--fooling the system of things." But it's not true.) Now, I'm going to show them what else there is in life--I'm going to be made an exception. And I'm saying this because it is going to be hard to get to the point where I'm accepted as an "exception." Furthermore, I want to say to all the people who fought their guts out to be an "exception" that you are a hero to all the other aspiring "exceptions" and without you things would be a lot harder. Stay the way you are--the way they hate to see you. Thanks.